I feel adrift in this crazy world,
Never knowing what’s coming next.
Being pulled in every direction,
Mostly feeling vexed.
I often feel as if I am on the outside looking in,
Never making up for things I’ve done,
Never feeling a win.
But there’s a hope within me,
And a love that grows each day.
A light like sunshine,
That floods in to extinguish the gray.
I’m clinging to an optimism,
that maybe it’s not too late.
And a prayer that after forgiveness,
I can start with a clean slate.
I’m feeling undeserving,
In the most vulnerable way.
The fight is on for survival,
The fear must subside today.
On my knees begging,
For the chance to show some change.
Whatever I have to do,
And fully prepared to fully rearrange.
So, I’ll walk through this door,
with faith instead of worry.
For once try and slow my mind down,
And not be in such a hurry.
Laying my insides out,
And stop living for everyone else.
Fighting away a doom that makes me want to shout,
Finally placing procrastination on a shelf.
No matter the outcome,
I’m still here in the now.
Thankful for the blessings,
And not questioning the why and the how.
I will love til my last breath,
asking everyone to not be sad.
So incredibly grateful for family and lessons,
Not spending another single second mad.
I encourage you to be raw and open,
And to never waste each chance.
And to never give up, no matter what,
Life is fleeting, love is priceless, and our time here on this earth one big and beautiful dance.